The Space Between

Some days I’m going along and I’m in that flow we all search for. Everything just clicks, synchronistic events occur to bring me exactly what I’ve asked for.  I feel so connected; like I’m right where I should be.

Then comes that one day, or two, maybe three, where absolutely nothing happens. No synchronistic events, no emails, no phone calls. It’s like I’m alone on the planet. Hey, what happened? Of course, I could just trust but that would be too easy. I have to question what happened, did I do something incorrectly.

Ironically, I didn’t do anything unusual. It’s just my prayer request is taking longer than I anticipated. I refer to that time as the space between; the space between where a prayer request has been made and is fulfilled.

It’s like placing an order online. We order the item and wait for it to arrive. If it’s supposed to arrive in 4 days and it doesn’t, we begin to wonder what happened. With online orders, we can pull up tracking numbers and find out where it is.  There is usually some legitimate reason; the item is back ordered, bad weather along the route, wrong number on the card, etc.

We can’t track our prayers though; we can only make our requests and have faith they will appear. If we’re quiet enough and surrender, we can start to see things line up to bring them to fruition. However, like ordering from different parts of the country, some requests take longer to arrive.

If we dwell in that space between, we can go nuts wondering where, when, and how.  If we can learn to let go and know it’s on its way, somehow, then we can relax and carry on. I know this sounds easy enough, but it is definitely very challenging to wait, especially when you really, really want something.

The next time I’m in the space between I think I’ll just prepare for the delivery or maybe I’ll order something else. I might as well enjoy the time.

Accepting What You’ve Asked For

Scratch, scratch, scratch….I look over from the kitchen sink and it’s Edmund, my cat. He’s sitting on his hind legs, both front feet on the sliding glass door, pawing away and looking over at me. It’s his way of saying “let me out”.  When he wants out, the pawing frequency increases and he becomes very vocal. Some days it’s “please, can I go outside” and other days it’s “let me outside now!!”

So I open the door, he looks out, and then turns back into the kitchen. All of that commotion and he didn’t even go outside! If you have cats, you know this is normal behavior……Fine, I go back to washing the dishes.

A few minutes later, the same scenario happens; more pawing on the door and more meowing. I open the door and he just sits there and looks outside. I try to shove him out, but he won’t go. Okay, that’s twice…..

Not 5 minutes later, the pawing and let me out mantra continues. This time I tell him “I’ve opened the door twice for you and you didn’t go. I’m not opening it again”. He quietly stops and walks away. Yeah right! This is a cat not a dog….. The pawing and meowing become more demanding!

Fine, I’ll open the door and…nope. He doesn’t go, will not go, and when I try to push him out he digs in and becomes this impossible to move dead weight. Ughhh…why do you ask for something and not take it when it comes?

These antics continue till and finally, at his timing, he runs out the door. If I’m really impatient with him, I’ll pick him up and just toss him out. You should see the look of surprise when that happens. “You’ve been begging for this, here it is, now go get it!”

Every time this happens, I have to wonder if I do the same thing. Do I pray please give me (fill in the blank) and when it appears, say no thanks, I’m afraid, or for whatever reason don’t accept it? Then after it disappears, I realize what just happened.

Crap, I missed out! Please bring that to me again, this time I’ll use it. It is given and again I don’t take it.

Doesn’t make sense does it?  I know when I’m dealing with Edmund, it gets really annoying to answer his requests and have him not accept it. At times I’ll just ignore him because he’s asked several times and he won’t accept it.  What’s the point of granting your request if you’re not going to use it?

Definitely makes me pay more attention. Currently, I have a few open requests. I’m going to make sure when they appear that I graciously accept them right away.

Preparing for What I’ve Requested

“I have an entertainment center, you want it?” Absolutely!  I said. I hung up the phone and eagerly began making room for it.  Moved the chair here, slid the couch over, got rid of a few unused items.  In short order, I had the perfect space for the entertainment center. I was excited and when my friend arrived, all that we had to do was unload it.

Recently I’ve been asking the powers above, “Where is my ______?”  I haven’t seen what I asked for and I’ve been patiently waiting. “Did you forget?” I’ll ask humorously.  Who hasn’t wondered where their “unanswered” prayers are? Personally, I’d like some GPS coordinates.

Course, whenever I start questioning above, I have to look at my own behavior and instantly saw an interesting pattern.  I’ll ask for something, give thanks for it, and then go on my merry way. So far so good; faith and letting go, I seem to have down.

However there is one thing I don’t do; prepare for the answered prayer.  What if I made “space” for the things I’ve asked for? What if I prepared for my requests to be answered and acted as if they were on their way or already here? If I was prepared, I could say “put that right here” and begin using it immediately. Rather than, “put that in the corner and I’ll get to it later”.

I’ve given people items and when I arrive at their house, it’s totally cluttered. You realize that what you gave them will probably be just be another piece of the pile. Personally, my first thought is “why would you ask, if you can’t even use it”.

On the flip side, I’ve given items to people who were incredibly thankful, were ready to receive it, and start using it while I’m there. They’re excited and ready to go.  Its feels so good giving to give to someone who is grateful and ready, I just want to give them more.

Hmmm, if I think like that and I’m just human then….….Yeah, I need to prepare for some answered prayers.